my A level exams ended on the 9th of june. I took A1 and A2 exams cuz I failed my A2 exams in oct nov and A1 exams in may june(all in 2025). I know im gonna fail and rn I have to study for the SAT while secrectly trying to study for my next A1 and A2 level exam in oct nov 2026. I have ADHD, my parents dont understand that cuz they dont believe in it and every day im stressed angry or annoyed with my inability to stay focused and study. One thing that I do look forward to is creating youtube shorts, I researched it EXTENSIVELY. but my parents want me to do online courses for skills and certificates, learn a language, enjoy life, research universities and apply, write the perfect personal statement, look and apply for scholarships, study for the SAT, publish something or be apart of some research. its so much and its so overwhelming that I just go upstairs and do nothing cuz im afraid of failure. the only hope I have is the youtube shorts thing cuz that is something I really enjoy and it can double as a passion project. Every day is weary and I wake up tired even though i sleep 8 hours- everyday I hear ” do this” ,”why havent you done this ”, ”why dont you try this”, ”why is this taking so long, ”stop being lazy and distracted”, ”okay fine dont do this I was only asking you to do this cuz it would benefit you,not me”